Monday, July 27, 2009

Me, Mother and the Diamond.





















Playing in the sand
under my mothers eyes
I found something,

it sparkled like a thousand suns on a clear day
like raindrops reflecting the moonlight
as though smiling shyly at me.
colors...oh the colors
my own rainbow I thought at first.
but it was more than just pretty colours.

I was dumbfounded, reflective

dazed and confused.

how could it be I find something so beautiful,
its radiance, its color,
its touch, its structure

I was in love with my new find,
amazed I was,
but then I am a child.

children are but children,
maybe they really do not know if something is really worth
the admiration I showered upon my discovery now


I clambered from my playing spot
and ambled to my mother

"mother, mother" I yelled in glee
"look what I have..."


My mother looked up,
her eyes concerned,
and saw the light in my eyes
and in my hand.

"Oh my god" she whispered
my child's eyes could not see what she was afraid of
"drop it...oh drop it" said she and I
just stared rooted there.

"drop it...it's a piece of glass"


I wanted to say some, at this time
I wanted to tell it was a diamond... my diamond
It would never hurt me
and that I would treasure it

"Drop it.. the wicked piece of glass"

Maybe it a wasn't diamond
but it wasn't wicked for sure,
How can a pure mind find something impure?

"drop it... you will hurt yourself"

No Mother, this wont hurt me
I found it in the sand
look how bright it glows
look how good it feels

"drop it ... it will hurt you"

No Mother, it was lying like this
forgotten, forlorn
I found it and now it loves me as much as I
I deserve it, Ma
Don't I?

"drop it... it's dangerous"

how could she think I'd endanger myself
but then I am a child
my mind is young and so is my wisdom,
in my mother's eyes,
It will be so,forever.

"drop it... it's not worth it"

if she could see it from as close as I was
maybe she would have said
it was flawless both from the inside and out,
the very thing I wanted to say.

these are things I wanted to say...
these are feelings I wanted to share
with mother.

but then she said

"drop it ...for god's sake..."
"drop it for my sake" said she,
tears in her eyes.

my hand opened... of it's own accord.
the jewel slipped and fell in the mud.
Lost forever, to me.


I wanted to say
I would not drop the Diamond for God.
I may not give up anything for Him

but for you,
I'd give my life, Ma.


Monday, July 20, 2009

Haiku?

Is this real Haiku;
Yeah dude its five - seven- five;
Oh ya so it is.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Is something wrong?

Reading a status message by Shrey told me that there was yet another suicide by a fresher in MMM hall of IIT Kharagpur. [newslink]

Apparently the guy wanted IIT Delhi or some other branch which he did not get. He was All India Rank 400.

wait... what?


the question comes : What is wrong with this system that forces a person in the top 0.1% of the whole country to commit suicide in his room one fine afternoon.

Is it the system?

Is it just the system?


Look if something WAS wrong with the system I'd probably be dead by now.

Everyone of us faces so many ups and downs. They are a part of daily life. If we just all sit down and say "I'm done now... There is no hope" can you expect this life to come around in a full circle.
For a competitive environment like today there is a need of students with not only High IQ but a high EQ also. How much can you take it. How much does it take you to bring you down.


I am not talking about this guy only... I have no right to.


I am saying this to all students like me and even aspiring ones in any field ... your life is not worth a failed exam. your life is not worth a low CGPA... your life is not worth a snub from a girl... your life is not worth a father's wishes.... a mother's scolding.... friends' admonishments... or even your own varied expectations from yourself... your life is not worth a company rejecting you.... it's not worth poverty or hunger.... it's not worth any physical disability or disease.

Your life is worth more than that.Because that's the way it has always been.

Please do not throw away your life so carelessly.... it's just not worth it.

Try Try Try and Try some more. And even if you do manage to fail.... grin and bear it, because no one fails forever.